The Internship part 5

So I got a call back from my interviewer, from 3 weeks ago.

No I didn't get the internship, but I had figured that out already. He gave me a few pointers about how to interview, he advised me to bring my portfolio, This I should have done, but really I was out of cash, and way too broke to print out new stuff....truth be told I'm still outta cash.

He did make me feel a lot better about it though, it definitely made up for portfolio preview, and all those weeks of worthlessness that came from it. I hate preview for that one reason. They really tear into you, I can understand when really you have a lot to work on, but its like they really enjoy making you feel bad. Even the people who passed said the same thing. "they really ripped into me" And I know I have had plenty of teachers who will tell you a design is not working, or the design is weak and when I ask why and then they can't tell me why. When you do that it makes it look like you A. Don't know what your talking about and B. are being opinionated. So I think this will be another goal for me in the future. The Art Institutes have a lot of issues as far as the teaching curriculum.

Teachers are opinionated.
Student work looks the same.
No one is really being creative anymore.
there needs to be a new standard.
I intend to help.

"Look, the word designer comes right off!"

I will never forget his speech during orientation. I can't remember his name, or even his face, but what he said stuck with me all these years. He told us that many times he feels like 'he is a fraud. That he really isn't a designer, he is not creative, he is artistic. He is just faking it all.' And I thought to myself "So am I."

I have been at this for 4 years now and it doesn't get any easier. Trying to find jobs, internships, just trying to make it out there. It really is hard. I sometime wonder if I should have chosen an easier field to get into. Been a receptionsit, or an administrative assistant. Or just a boring lab worker. I could have done it. I am actually very good at those type of things.

Answering the phone *sounding nice
Greeting people *looking cute
Filing papers *remembering the ABC's

Art is so much harder, design work is hard. That kind of stuff comes easy to me, but I really have to work at design, I have to think harder. So I feel like a fraud. But then again, when I get it right, when I get it REALLY right, I feel like I have actually done something worthwhile. So maybe I'm not faking it after all.

The Internship part 4

I waited all day and he didn't call.

No I'm not talking about my latest love triumph, I am talking about the guy I interviewed with a few days ago. He said he would call by Friday and alas...he didn't. I really felt good about this internship too...I spent the majority of the day being depressed thinking, I will be stuck at best buy until I am 40. Somehow though I got into my mind that maybe I should call him, so I did. He told me he was still interviewing people and I should give him till the 24th...so that gives me a little more hope, but not much. If he liked me enough he would have just stopped after the 4 right? But I am keeping hopeful.

In other news.
Since I didn't get a confirmation on the internship by the 13th I had to take on another class. Boo..or so I thought. Turns out that the other class is going to be awesome. One of my personal mantra's when it comes to Design is "with Design I can change the world" in fact its on my desktop.
Any who I have felt this way after reading a particular book. Which I find is amazing. The book is called The Design of Dissent: Socially and Politically Driven Graphics. This books is filled with some of the most amazing graphical work I have seen in a very long time. And it is all social and political which is awesome! If anyone loves me they will get me this book as a gift.

The Internship part 3

The my interview was yesterday. It seems to have gone well. The guy I interviewed with was very nice. I followed the advice of my professors and

1. Didn't wear a suit.
2. Took the water!

I was really worried that he would treat me like they did at portfolio preview, were they made me feel as if most of my work was infantile, and no where near good enough to get a job, much less pass portfolio class. Really I think this interview has done a lot to boost my dying ego which has been on a breathing machine for the last few months. I think I can go into my Senior Project class and do my best this quarter. Even though I have to take preview again!